it's been a long time since i mugged alone at the void-deck. it's also been a long time that i cried at my beloved void-deck. everythin seemed so familiar, so sad. with sad songs blasting in my ears, it's all of a sudden that i felt alone. maybe cos there was no one there except me. to be frank, i felt a sense of betrayal and hurt. i can feel my heart tearin apart and that i would just explode anytime. and the thing is i dont know what the hell is happenin to me and around me. i need an answer. now. or maybe soon.